So I am thinking back to my little Bonnie
And she is just a cat
Or was just a cat
And she died almost two years ago.
But it was sudden
And I still miss her.
And when I find her collar in my drawer, it still makes me cry (as I do a little now)
Because she was my friend
And she didn’t judge
She just loved me.
Even when I didn’t pet her enough
Or was a little late with the fancy feast
She was just there at my feet
Or on the bed
Just wanting to be near me
Needing a periodic head nuzzle
Or scratch of the ears
Just warm and sweet
Just my friend
With no conditions
Just loving me for me
It was pure.
And I am thinking that this cat taught me how to love
(she and her brother Clyde)
Like really love…
Like all the way…
all the way open love.
Because man these pets are clever.
They can worm all the way in there.
I did have pets as a kid
But this one was different.
She was MY kitty…
and, honestly, this was my first time as a Mom.
We were together for 10 years
No matter how you look at it…
IS a relationship.
I read recently a cool article.
It said that if we treated our mates with the same love and acceptance
We do our pets
Our relationships would be a lot better.
Like you know Bonnie was so sick before she passed
she threw up everywhere.
Trashed the carpets.
But I didn’t care.
And she scratched the hell out of my couch…
but I still loved her.
Even when she jumped on the counter…
and dragged her tail through the spaghetti…
it was funny.
Wonder if I would have cut my guy the same slack?
(if he got his tail in spaghetti… I am sure we would have a lot of other issues to deal with but…)
Maybe too when I think about her…
that IS little Bonnie…
Tickling my memory.
And maybe she wants me to remember her
How I loved her.
So I will be ready when I meet my guy…
or anyone for that matter.
I like that.
Sneaky little Bonnie
All this time I thought I was her to take care of you.
Turns out it was the other way around.
If you never saw this, it is worth a watch. Even if you did, you will thank me for the second chance.
And if you get through this without tearing up or remembering a favorite pet…
we are going to check your heart.